the past

Yesterday went to the briefing for the IT fair, the brand Im going to work for

Took about 2 to 3 hours.

It was damn tired after all that.

Somemore my stomach was empty at the moment..

Torturing me.

Everyday have to have a min sales of 5 units.

But I set mine to 10 units.

Maybe you think Im crazy.

But for the extra RM200

I think it is worth for a fight.

Just have to put double effort.

and double the luck.

I can predict for the few days of the IT fair

I must be very tired.

at the end will be exhausted.

LOL!!

Perhaps there is little bit things that can motivate me.

Feel like very tired last night.

I was thinking of something.

about the past.

weird :x

I just can't overcome it.

How can I??

all the while you have been hurting me only.

if you just let go,

perhaps things will be different.

and I wont hate you that much.

the fireworks make me thought of you.

what you did that night.

and I do know that actually deep inside my heart

I still love you although I said break

I hope you understand that we break up is not because no more love.

Is for my future.

I won't think about any other relationship now

cause I am really tired of it.

Tired of everything you done for me.

Tired of taking care of you..

I

SMILE C:

I was too bored when I do this!

LOL!!

I want back my hapiness.

I want back my smile.

Im just thinking too much

maybe I too care.

and I am emo because of this.

Just can say sorry..

This is the way I am.

I do care on every single thing of you!!

unchanged situation :(

owwhh here comes my raya break of 1 week+. C:

wuhoo. <3

If I know this earlier perhaps I can work at the fair.

It's too late.

this few days I am really tired.

Party everyday haha!!

Everyday yamcha, celebrate, and bla bla.

Yesterday just went for an earlier birthday celebration for JOEY and EDWARD..

happy birthday in advance to you both..

dear Edward,

don't emo everyday.

be happy always.

and everybody do care of you

Be more optimistic!

SMILE always C:

I enjoy my single life.

full of freedom.

Don't need to tell anybody where I wanna go

and I did flush everyday and regularly.

Keeping my good mood for all the time

Until now, me and my ex bf still remain unchanged!

He just couldn't let go.

I know it is hard!

But I hope you can just let me go.

I am begging you!

Please do not torture me like this.

I am acting like I don't really care

But in fact it do bothers me!

I hope you will read this and understand it.

I am no longer yours!

maybe you will think I'm cruel

but through what have you done in this period,

it make me so sick of you!

I am sorry to say that..

Perhaps my heart was no longer there.

We should just move on

look for the path to your future.

there must be an alternative way to go

Don't keep put suicide on your mouth.

It can't change a thing.

I won't regret on what I have done.

This is my style.

This is the way I am.

So sorry to you.

I wont change for anybody other than myself.

AND,

you don't really understand me

stop acting like you know me well..

people do change accordingly to the environment

Is just about the time taken only.

and the time you realise!

No matter how people talk about me,

I will just ignore it and continue.

unless I think it make sense on it.

Then only I will accept it!

Please.. Let me go and move on!

RESULT!

mood for the day: HORRIBLE

oh god..

finally the result is releasing today at 12pm.

TERRIBLE.

I have failed.

But is within my expectation actually.

I know I will fail..

With the result I got

I decided to drop one paper this sem.

and resit for the 2 papers that I failed.

I don't know how to face my family.

I shouldn't give any excuse for my failure.

after I received the email from uk side

I decided not to go for class

Cause I have decided to drop that paper.

No point for me to stay in there and let her scold.

Got to go and visit the admin for further process..

after the result I went to redbox with hydie (:

spending our sweet time in k room

just two of us.

then there comes henry, her boy.

I was releasing stress there.

I thought I have found back my smile.

but last night, he rob my smile again

and I have to re-boost my mood.

Im not happy...

Luckily I have friends around me

accompany me.

After sing k with hydie,

we bought J.CO donuts as my tea-time

and have it at starbucks.

This is what we called ENJOYED LIFE (:

Staying back alone at college without Jiaqie today.

therefore I have times to sit alone for blogging while hydie take a nap.

Things that bother me a lot was my result and my ex bf.

things that haven settle.

what can I do to fix it rather than make it worst and think about it everyday?

I have done my part.

as my friends say

perhaps I have to be more cruel.

But I can't..

too kind? maybe..

arhh.. I scared one day I will crash down.

I just can't handle all in one time.

Many things I doesnt tell you doesnt mean that I dont care.

Just hide it inside my heart

never let you know.

and not everything I can share.

I will be strong

I love this quotes. It's suits me well...

21.8.2011

HYDIE

well today was this girl's birthdays

Happy birthday to you<3

and i hope you have a great day (:

and hope you love your present.

shared by us.

hope one day you can wear it.^^

this was the present for you (:

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hmm I wonder why are you not gonna fed up since I have hurt you so much?

sometimes I really don't feel like replying his message.

you always take something to attract my attention.

are you an attention seeker?

I can't stand it.

Finally I went out from my upset mood.

Perhaps the phrase "tomorrow will be a better day" was true!!

Now no more people to control me.

I can just enjoyed my life.

I have my freedom!

I can choose the path I want.

However I feel like sometimes I am lonely.

Am I?

Although I have lots of friends around.

But stay at home is always the best.

(:

After being single for a period,

I have been more tired.

Always went out at night with friends

and bla bla.

But I do enjoy my life C:

Tomorrow will be the day the UK releasing my ACCA results

dead :x

I think all fail lah.

Just try again next semester!

All the best to all the people out there!!

Please forgive me daddy mummy.

Recently somebody treat me very good.

but for now I won't think of relationship.

I just wanna focus!

Find back the previous maygie C:

but things just gone wrong.

I hope in future it will turns right.

I will be happy again!

Face my life with a sweet smile everyday.

Enjoy my life till max!!

smile C:

It's totally complicated

I was having a bad week

for what I deserved..

the trouble that I mad

e.

I do admit

It is really not easy to say break at all.

Especially to those who we love.

I tried not to hurt you.

But you?

You make your own life hard.

You live for me.

But this is not what I want.

I just want a normal teenager's life.

You might say you are a teenager too

but you have went through everything that I'm facing now.

I just started to enjoy life but you demanding me to stop now.

Because of you I have no more freedom..

I tried to accept you

although it have been 3 years I live in this way.

But things do change.

and I have limit too.

and now it burst out.

I understand how you feel.

I wasn't happy with this ending too

but you are a BURDEN.

you always a BURDEN to me!!!

Im sorry on what I have done to you.

I just couldnt stop blaming myself of hurting you so deep.

But if I dont be cruel,

It would take longer time to settle down.

It would be much hurt by the time.

everything got much more complicated now.

I do bothers me!!!

You said I did not put this relationship in my eye.

But you do not understand how tired am I.

How I suffered for this while.

I even lost my smile for this while.

but the way you say goodbye

is like you decided to suicide.

I dont like a person which will take it's life as a joke.

you only will hurt the people around you.

Please do appreciate it.

appreciate what you have and what you own

especially the life.

and please learn to be mature!

Although we have already break up

but I can always be your listener.

as a friend..

But it might be hard for both of us.

but time will cure all these.

Perhaps you will find a better girl.

Someone that much more suitable for you more than me.

Thank you for whatever you have done to me.

for the time you spend on me.

and your heart..

I will never regret on what I do.

once the decision have been made

we should not regret at all..

from now on I will move on

and find back my smile

the optimistic

have faith and I can made it!!

goodbye to you!

love you as always.

Just leave me alone

I feel bad.

Feel shame.

Shame on myself.

Treated someone I love you like that.

How could I be so cruel

I made him lose everything.

Almost everything.

But I just cant move on.

I couldnt find back the feel of last time.

Im serious.

I rather hurt now..

Feel tired of it.

Everyday thinking on what have I done.

I make everybody disappointed.

I didnt post my mood everyday.

I dont even know what to share,

What to start.

After I breakup with him,

I hurt him too much ald.

Im really sorry.

But I need someone much more mature.

Someone that suitable for me

No matter how deep is my love

No matter how long the road of you and me

its still not important anymore

My current mood: RUNAWAY

I wish to runaway from this realistic world.

I wish to stay alone

I wish to left everything behind

I wish to restart my life

I wish I wish.....

So many things came across my mind.

But I cant do anything about it.

I am tired of myself.
I need somebody to accompany at my side.

Help me settle all my problem.

Whatever. Is not important anymore.

However, no matter how my life change to,

I will still move on.

I hope you will also.

Just let go, perhaps you can find a better one!

Trust me! Im not suitable for you.

I have changed to background song

Changed to the songs by Olivia Ong.

A great singer with sweet voice.

Fall in love with her songs.

Recommended to all of you (:

song title : sometimes when we touch

just leave me alone

to recover my mood by myself.

Break up

Yesterday was a bad day for me.
Is been a long while I have not be in such a bad mood.
I was really down..

Class was in afternoon.
I woke up early morning.
After that went to pavillion alone for starbuck.
what I want is to calm myself.
sit there alone and think of what I wish to archieve.
Perhaps is time for me to end this up..
You have be a burden for me..
I need to rest..

Afterwards went to my friend place..
Time for college.
I was down and not in mood.
Luckily class ended earlier. At 5.
Cut down my torture time.
I couldnt focus at all.
I was reading magazine and facebooking all the time.
Saw a nice bag.. The brand called banana taipei.
A friend of mine say is like hermes. Lols
I ask my cousin to help me buy for it from taiwan. save a lots. Whee <3

After class ended, we went to ss15 snowflakes.
we was discussing about my problem and bla bla bla.
I told myself Everythings will be alright..
Single wasnt that bad I think.


at night went to mamak with my friends.
Discuss the same thing again.
But different people.
All the people asked me to let go.
Shouldnt let myself suffer.
Whether to do or not to do is my decision.
This have been bother me this few days.

I decided to let go.
I told him at night.
He asked me to stay with him until the trip.
And I agreed.

Lack of sleep this few days
Looks like a vampire.
Im going crazy people.
I scared I will be alone again..
May god bless me. (:

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Oooppss

oh I realise I am such a lazy person..

my blog has not been up to date for so long..

the last thursday, I have been in an accident

my friend was driving.

he bang the wall at the corner near Taylor's lakeside campus

the tyre went off..

n I got shocked!

haha I got blue black on my hand and waist

but now better (:

Dont worry I'm fine (:

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I wasnt in a good mood recently..

I found out, actually he wasnt the one I am looking for after so long..

We doesnt suitable for each other.

the culture the way you think.. the way u behave yourself

I couldnt bear it..

Until last night.

something did happen..

but i denied it..

I couldnt let go..

I dont know why is that so.

People always say is easy to say I DO more than GOODBYE

I am giving chances to both of us.

this relationship has been work for 3 years+

going to be the 5th months.

But things do have changes.

im getting mature.

But u was exactly like the time we meet..

I need someone who will think..

who can protect me..

someone who can actually make me smile.

you gave me sadness.. you gave me pressure..

I already got a lot from my parents and study.

I dont want to have extra pressure..

I dont know where else I can express all this

I know you wont see this..

Even if you see this you will just ignore.

you will never know what I thought and what I feel....

Whatever..

I feel stress on it..

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07.08.2011

today went to sing k with my sister..

is have been a long time I didnt meet them..

You all was always the best in my heart

no matter what happen...

We still will be the closest friend ever.

pictures have been uploaded in facebook (:

we went to sushi zanmai at farenheit 88

this was first time TYNG went there

have a lots of fun time with you all

after lunch, we went to pavillion

the TOKYO STREET

a new section that just opened..

quite nice there..

we took a pictures with the tanglung there..

there is a funny thing happen at there

there is a group of people ask us to help them take the picture.

after the picture is taken by my friend,

they suddenly ask us a question: " where are you all from?"

my friend: " we are from kl. here" (:

the group of people: " oh.. you all looks pretty! we thought you all was from other states or country.. by the way we from penang.."

my friend: "haha! thank you.. welcome to kl.."

the conversation was funny..

those we looks like outsider?

haha:D LMAO

at first planned to off at 3 or 4 something

end up i went back at 6 something..

LOL wasted all my study time...

but nevermind. is over my progress test..

now trying to relax..

I cant wait for this sunday.

Hopefully I will be happy there after.. (:

hmm I will try to update again if I have something to post..

here are some pictures(: just few but sweet.